The end

I feel a little guilty for not posting lately, I'm just beginning to bore myself. I don't have a lot to say except thank you. I have a warm place to stay, a good job... I'm healthy, I have friends and family. Work has been crazy this weekend, and while I'm not making mad money, I can just about pay my rent and bills on time and I've been able to stay ok through the craziness of the first wave of season.

Its the day after christmas and I'm about to enjoy some grilled conch (pronounced conk) at a cool jamacain place a couple blocks from my house (hee hee hee). It is supposed to get down to 39 tonight, and with the wind, it is cold. Relatively. But if you don't have four walls and a roof...

I'm not a very big fan of christmas. Usually I do my best to ignore it until it goes away. This year was easy. The only real reminders were lights and the occasional "merry christmas". I sent one card, and that was about enough. I'm sorry the card wasn't to you, but I only have so much christmas spirit, and I spent it on the one I would've felt really guilty if I hadn't.

So I'm thinking about stopping this blog. I started it with the intention of chronicling my experiences of homelessness until I got on my boat. Well, I sort of crapped out and took a shared apartment. Now I'm not struggling too much, and am about to start saving for the boat. I am still doing my best to live the good buddhist life, but if you do it right, I think, it is pretty boring. You just live and give thanks. Who wants to read about that?

My roommate is always on the verge of self-destructing. She has a decent place to work, but she is a professional, and the people she works with aren't. Consequently, they hate her, and since they share tips, she isn't making much money. If it wasn't that, it would probably be something else. I love her, and I am thankful to understand that I don't have to be crazy just because the world around me is. So I am saving my money and being the best friend I can be without telling anyone what to do.

I'm loving this restuarant. I have to go to jamaica. I have to get to the carribean on my boat. And once I get there, I doubt I will ever come back. Just found out they are out of conch. Bummer. This has been a busy weekend. When I came in, they said I could have one of three or four dishes. Down to two or three now. I'm going for the poached fish.

My soulmate is still not in my life, but maybe she will be before I leave. Life is short. I'm not waiting for her, she wouldn't want me to. But god is managing my life, thank you, I fired the last manager I had... uh, yes, that would be me; I was incompetent for the job.

When season kicks in... that's what people in the wrong job are saying now. Season kicked in about two weeks ago, and I am in the right place at the right time. Thank you. I think I remember saying this would happen...

So I have a really good life; I have enough. I don't needs anything I haven't got. I am not special. Anyone reading this blog can have the same peace of mind that I have. I doubt you would want my life, I don't really have anything. But I have peace. And that is something that most people I know don't have. And that is the most curious thing to me, because we all create our own problems. We literally create them. And if you stop wanting, stop desiring things, your problems go away pretty fast. Thank you.

I don't know when I will post again. Please email me if you want to talk, I can never have enough friends or family. When I get my boat I will start another blog because that will be the next chapter. Better pictures in the next one, I promise. Maybe I will change my mind, but I doubt it. My life is blessedly, peacefully, boring. Thank you.

I started this blog with a prayer, and I guess I should finish with one.

Thank you father for giving me the words and the experiences to help those who have benefited from this blog. Please let it be that those who need will find. Please take away from me, my the burden of self. Guide me through my thoughts and feelings to do your will instinctively. Let me be an instrument of your peace, fill my heart with your love so that I can give it to all that I meet. Let all of my thoughts and actions be for the good of all, according to the free will of all, and so must it be. Thank you.