Always choices

I'm still having phone issues. It won't keep a charge, so I don't carry it to work, and when I'm not working it's dark, and the phone has no flash. I have a camera with a flash, but to attach photos to a post, I would have to upload from camera to laptop, then download to phone. And I'm not even sure I can do that. It bumms me out that I'm not posting cool new pictures, but that will come. Rent comes first.

My friend and I discussed my drinking some more, and I think we've negotiated an understanding; I can drink in the apartment, just not all the time. I have been drinking a little too much anyway, so I think everything is copesetic in that area for now.

Last night I finally did make my first homemade caesar salad with grilled chicken and fresh tomato in about five months. It was really good. Had some decent white wine with it too.

I also met a guy living on a 28 foot sailboat. He got the money to buy it from BP. My boat is going to come fast like that too, I just don't know how it will happen. I will have the boat when god let's me have it. The guy told me that when you're 100 miles off shore at night the sky is incredible. "As bright as day" is what he said. He also told me that if I wonder if I should reef my sail, do it. I've heard this before, and since he felt compelled to tell me in what was no more than an hour conversation, I think I will keep it in mind.

There is patience minute to minute and day to day. There is also patience that you hold week to week and month to month. And by patience, I am talking about knowing god will provide everything you need, and waiting for it. God knows what I need before I do. He feeds me, gives me a place to stay before it gets cold, a job, people who he wants me to make good with, and he will give me a boat when it is time.

It's raining this morning, but getting warmer. I have about ten minutes before I have to get ready to go to work. I've done the dishes, figured out the problem with the kitchen light, and I still have to take out the trash. Three weeks ago I didn't have these "problems". Each of us chooses, and our choices become our past and create our future.

As the guy living on his 28 foot sailboat said to me, may you have calm seas and the wind at your back.