Afterthoughts

I'm on the beach now. It is really difficult to stay mad with a beautiful moonrise and the sound of surf softly landing on the shore.

I didn't have a family growing up. But I always knew I was loved. Some people never grow up.

I made the right decision to stay here. Even though it is late October and I still sweat everyday and night, I have found peace here. It is a strange feeling... like cotton in your ears. Even though the world is chaotic arround you, there is a silence that envelops you like a blanket.

I meant to mention that I have found a holy place. I have never felt the peace and the silence that exists at the intersection of third and meridian. I can feel it two blocks away as I walk toward it. Honestly, it's the wierdest thing. I don't understand it, but I know it. And there is a beautiful jamacian woman who lives on that corner, and I bet someday I will have the chance to tell her how lucky she is. And, from her smile, I bet she will tell me she already knows it.

Every little thing is going to be alright. I'm not sure why I had to ask for help, but maybe it had something to do with appreciating family. That's the thing with lessons, you never know what you're learning until you've learned it. I just might get to meet my neice by email soon. I've never seen her. I want to have a family, and I am afraid that I won't be good enough.

Enough of that. No worries, god's will is perfect, and god's love is sufficient. Clear skys and cool breezes.  :)