Never a dull moment

I'm getting excited, and I am trying to contain it. I am feeling like it may actually be time to get the boat. I have a very little money saved, but enough to buy a boat that is smaller than I wanted. I have a friend who knows about power boats and has lived here for around eight years. He knows a lot of people, and he has offered to help. I am living in the hostel, so I have no kind of commitment to any land-based accommodation. I could concievably significantly increase my boat fund within a month with out inconveniencing myself. It just might be time...

Then again, you never know, there might be some unforseen savings-dessimating event on my horizon. I will get a boat exactly when god says I can have one. Not not a minute before nor after. And I sure do like the idea that the moment might be soon approaching.

I am still trying to process what happened with my roommate. I still can't find my culpability, other than just engaging in the first place. I don't think she knows how to end a relationship without violence (I'm talking about emotional violence here), and when you are tied to someone like that, I think, you just have to go through it. I still don't know what I could have done differently. Had I left when I recognized what was going on, I still would have been the bad guy. I guess now I know what will happen when I engage with a kind and generous, yet unstable, attractive french lesbian who has two kids, a cat, and a jack russel puppy. I'm glad I met her, and sad things ended the way they did.

I'm also happy because my two year contract on this phone ends this Friday. In two days I get a new phone. Its a good thing because now I can't even close the thing without losing my display. By the way, just in-case my ex-wife is reading, the word that means one who never wins is spelled loser, not looser. I love hearing how all the solicitors try to pronounce it. Its the little things that make life fun...

So, right, boat maybe on the way. Maybe smaller than I want, but I'm sure perfect in every way. Gods will is perfect, his love is sufficient. I still have everything I need, everyday. I've decided that if reincarnation actually happens, I want to come back as a tree.